Tuesday, October 25, 2011

me : d i l e m m a


dilemma.. dilemma.. dilemma..

wat should i do??

ya Allah... buka kan la pintu cita2 ku..

errmm, lame x update blog.. since my 'beruk' band kene cut.. krisis ekonomi yg menjunam jatuh.. 2 la akibat nye duk umah x buat pape.. elaun pn xde.. nak cari keje, tp x ready.. rase malasss sgt2.. tp duk umah.. boorrring sgt.. pening kan?? 2 la, aku mmg tgh pening.. ermm..

nape pening? ermm.. sbnrnye aku xde mood la due tige menjak nie.. rase cam kosong sgt.. xtau nape.. mcm2 bende aku fkir.. obviously pasal future.. pe la nak jadi.. aku xtau nak smbung degree ape.. aku x dpt nak imagine sape fatin nor alidah pada mase akan dtg.. xtau nak stdy ape, xtau nak keje ape.. mcm life without any matlamat.. mcm patah smgat pn ade.. benci! benci!

i hate being like this.. :(
maybe this is my bad timing..

susah nak cakap.. harap2 ape yg aku harap, aku dapat.. well~ sume org nak mcm 2 kan.. but seriously.. i really cant imagine camane life aku kalau aku x dapat.. dapat ape? biarlah rahsia dulu.. kalau da btl2 dapat baru aku mention kat sini.. ksian aku kan..

ya Allah.. kuatkan lah aku ya Allah.. aminnnn...